good looking bunch of sick folks here today, no one really looks like an alcoholic and I'm glad I can't see myself

good looking sick folks/no one looks alcoholic

6 hours = 1/2 time Steps 1 & 2

sleep

pass basket = handouts other seminars/use jail seminars

hold questions: write down/lay here/ask me

treatment = contradict/their way, ask them

not expert/my views which change

disagree = neither right/wrong, see things differently

not allied group, AA, institution

purpose introduce/reintroduce Book/stimulate interest

when/how take Steps = don’t take it want feel bad

recovery found Book

how many seen at meetings

book not about alcohol/alcoholism = about alcoholic

fellowship/meetings support

principles apply drugs/gambling/co-dependence/smoking/etc

handout

prayer: God, let us set aside everything we think we know about you, the fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous, the Big Book, ourselves, & alcoholism for an open mind as we go through this seminar. As we look at the Big Book, please provide each of us the liberty to disagree on certain points & form our own opinions. And in all things, let us foster an attitude of love. Amen.

hard keep up/again here to get you interested

best way understand Book/read with another

book = written 12 Step call/one reason written: those not contact with authors message not distorted

speak Book = 1st 164 pages preface, forwards, appendixes

discuss 1st 89 pages = where Steps are

don't neglect rest/don't let chapter titles miss lead you

super information living, helping others

from 1st 89 pages 3 things

problem = Step 1

solution = Step 2

applying solution = Steps 3-12

Steps from medicine, psychiatry, religion, experience

not in Book = not AA program, real good/useful

start chapter 5

1) book put together one chapter prepares next/Steps same

1) _______________ read, I comment

XVI

1) must = 84 times/mustn't, had better, had to, have to, imperative 46 = times/total = 130

XVII

1) how stay sober

1) Book, alcohol, alcoholism, people not changed

had AA sobriety cause followed AA program

get a lot fellowship info/not A.A. program

today have fellowship sobriety cause don’t follow book = message changed

went by Book only one way = A.A. way

XXI

1) new 51 times

XXII

1) important what Book says/what doesn’t say = no time limit

XXIII

1) nature problem/Step 1

XXIV

1) control = 24 times

DEFECTIVE: lacking something essential to be complete

ALTRUISTIC PLANE: concern welfare others

XXVI

1) insanity = unable see truth

XXIX

1) more uncomfortable inside more prone drink

more comfortable inside less prone drink

PHENOMENON: exceptionally rare/unusual

PSYCHIC CHANGE = spiritual experience spiritual awakening, attitude adjustment, personality change

2) trust God = Steps 1-3

clean house = Steps 4-11

help others = Step 12

later use Steps 10,11,12

XXIX

1) example problem/about progression/feeling/not drunk-a-log

all Steps here but not written yet

12 Step call = what like, what happened, what like now

WAR FEVER: nervousness, restless excitement

2) 1st drink 21/18 years +

EXHILARATING: exciting, cheerful

REMONSTRANCES: expressions disapproval

1)solution: why drink = change way feel, XXVI

1) 4 years ago folks listened tune millions

2) now alcoholic

COCKSURENESS: overconfidence

1) unmanageable

2) drank not feel = his solution

SELFISH: concerned excessively or exclusively with self

D.T’s: violent restlessness, trembling terrifying visual hallucinations

WET BRAIN: severe permanent brain damage

1) bottom, afraid live, afraid die

1) unmanagealbe

2) Step 1

INSIDIOUS: tricky, cunning, seductive

FOURTH DIMENSION: outside ordinary experience, unexplainable, must be experienced

1) took Step 1

2) where find God

3) hope

1) God 124 times

pronouns 92 times

titles 66 times

total 242

Higher Power twice

trouble with word God use word love

ANTIPATHY: strong feeling dislike, hostility, opposition

2) take Step 2

3) Step 2/spiritual growth starts here

HUMBLE: not proud, arrogant, assertive, aware shortcomings

CLAMORS: outcries, commotion's

1) 39 yrs old

2) hospital 7 days, 3rd day takes Steps

3) Steps 3,6,7

4) Steps 4,5,8,9

5) test = unselfish, honest, considerate, loving

6) Step 11

7) Step 10

SELF-CENTEREDNESS: concerned solely one’s desires, needs, interests

1) Step 3

2) principles, bottom 13/belief in God, willingness, honesty, humility

3)Step 12

4) how stay sober = Step 12

1) more quitting drinking than quitting drinking

2) principles bottom 13/belief in God, willingness, honesty, humility

1) drunk/alcoholic same behavior

1) mind can't solve problem cause mind is problem

can’t control mind = mind controls us

568

INNER RESOURCE: God conscience

BELLIGERENT: hostile, combative, quarrelsome

1) blotting out = Step 1

accept spiritual help = Step 2

1) results not doing Steps

2) taking Step 1/practiced Step 1 get here, why work here

3) alcoholic = can’t control drinking/not drinking behavior

1) liver/pancreas/brain chemical

CRUX: core/most important thing

1) took Steps 1-3 not 4-12

CONSTERNATION: amazement

1) resentment

1 ) no Step 1 = impossible take others

SUBTLE: sly, elusive, clever

1) about developing relationship God

AGNOSTIC: person unsure that God exits

2) when want to = obsession

little control = allergy

alcoholic test, lack control/not amount, time, what drank

3) doomed = not physical/dying spiritually, mentally

1) no more talk alcohol = about recovery

1) taking Step 2

1) attitude = Step 2/simple requirements Steps 3-12

2) Steps = trust God, clean house, help others

FUTILITY: uselessness, without purpose

1) untreated alcoholism

1) draw near = God prayer/doing His will

discloses Himself = meditation/through others

1) chapter 5 = 77 pages prior: lot information/not understood makes Chapter 5 useless/maybe part problem low recovery rate

2) why people don't make it = fail, perfect, enlarge spiritual life word thoroughly/ page 14

CONSTITUTIONALLY: by there basic nature

RIGOROUS: very strict

CUNNING: crafty, tricky

1) patient

2) Steps summarize program, XXII

1) description alcoholic = Dr.’s. Opinion

chapter agnostic = chapter 4

adventures = Bill's story/chapter 3

2) being convinced what

3) If you are not convinced on these vial issues, you ought to reread the book to this point or else throw it away!

4) no instructions Steps 1,2

5) clear-cut directions Steps 3-12/28 pages + chapter 7

6) mind can't solve problem cause mind is problem/turn it over God/don't turn over responsibilities

SELFISHNESS: caring unduly oneself, regarding own comfort disregard others

SELF-CENTEREDNESS: absorbed in self

1) alcohol symptom not problem

1) saying it/meaning it different

prayer carried out Steps 4-12

2) lot time 1st 3 Steps/only decisions now action

3) Step 4 ID’s defects discussed Step 5

decide Step 6 want feel better,

if so what get rid off Step 7

Step 8 prepares Step 9 with names

1) common manifestations symptoms self-centered/selfish person suffering spiritual illness

resentments (wrong judgements)

fears (wrong believing)

sex (wrong actions) how we hurt others

these separate us from God

2) RESEMENTMENT: re-feel/re-live old pain/hurt over & over again

don't have be red faced, veins popping, shaking = just irritated, on edge, smoldering anger, angered over day

3) mentally ill = obsession

physically ill = allergy

spiritually ill = selfishness & self-centeredness

recover spiritually, mentally & physically =

get right with God = spiritually

stops obsession = mental

allergy not triggered

4) 25 instructions resentments apply all

5) compare 1st 3 columns 65 & columns 4/5 on 67

on paper look stupid/see how many really have

FUTILITY: uselessness, without purpose

1) free anger = does not control us, not don't get angry

GROUCH: habitually complaining/irritable

BRAINSTORM: fits rage

2) only way rid past get future out it God waste nothing

resentments come back/block us off from God, must get root problem/source/exact nature to deter return

1) column 5 Steps 5,6,7

column 1 Steps 8,9

resentments, fears, selfishness, dishonesty again Steps 10,11

have 3 inventory Steps 4,10,11

2) fears (wrong believing)

why: will lose something, something will happen or not happen, someone will find out

fears not all bad = God given

block doing useful/productive/cause not experience peace mind, serenity/interfering with lives = bad

fear list

1)not about sexual partners

about whom hurt = arouse jealousy, suspicion, bitterness

wrong actions

about future

sex = how think not do

1) 4th list other ways harmed others

1) Step 5 confession = continuation Step 4

exact nature wrongs, defects, short comings, things admitted objectionable

2) do 5th or pick up 5th

HUMBLED: reduced self-pride

1) not confession = continuation Step 4

get help seeing you

pick partner carefully

done Step 5

quality sobriety not length

your life, others at stake

very, very serious

dialogue not monologue

open ended

no interruptions

person talks about others, will talk about you

not counseling but sharing

letting another really know makes you tick

WALK A FREE MAN: free from bondage of self

1) answer what = test questions 75

Steps provide solution problem pinpointed Steps 4,5

Steps 6,7 = column 5

let go & let God = rubbish

replace column 5 with opposite

Step 6 = don’t do what you what to

Step 7= do what you don’t want to

2) apology = acknowledge wrong

amend = setting right wrong/living differently:

helps ease pain caused

helps other person be forgiving

makes more likely not repeat mistake

amends ourselves = making amends

thus lose fear, guilt, remorse, shame, frees from past

correct wrongs committed:

material/moral/spiritual

1) chart

REPARATIONS: amends/repairs

1) every amend situation answered 76-83 = not specially/principles apply all situations

1) more quitting drinking then quitting drinking

2) 12 promises start 3/4 Steps, 1/2 way

1) Step 1 gets to program

Steps 2-9 get ready for program

Steps 10,11,12 living program

growth/deal present, future

1st 9 Steps deal with past

Steps 10,11,12 daily living program

Step 10 = deepens/broadens relationship with ourselves

keeps from falling backward

Step 11 deepens/broadens relationship with God

keep growing spiritually

Step 12 give to others to keep it

2) Step 2

LAURELS: past achievements

1) obsession removed

2) 4 important parts day =

bedtime/waking/indecision/agitated

MEDITATION = intentional focusing thoughts

1) review

Step 1 = willingness change

Step 2 = believe can change

Step 3 = decision change

Steps 4-11 = actions necessary change

Steps 1-9 past

Steps 10-12 present/furure

Step 10 keep from going backward

Step 11 growth

Step 12 give away to keep

1) Step 12 spiritual awakening, personality change sufficient bring about recovery from alcoholism, psychic change, spiritual experience, attitude adjustment

Step 12 = 3 parts/promise/what carry

what practice/where = principles

belief in God, willingness, honesty, humility/bottom 13

= love/service

how stay sober, period/page 14 same thing

doesn’t say how long sober

XXII = recovery beings when one alcoholic shares his/her experience, strength, hope

again speak ourselves, not AA, group, institution

sincerely hope/pray you got something today

if so, pass it to keep it for that only way keep it

got resentment today, remember: resentment number one offender = pray for me: I need prayers you probably need practice

again speak myself, not AA/group/institution

sincerely hope/pray you got something today if so, pass it to keep it for that only way keep it got resentment today, remember: resentment number one offender = pray for me: I need prayers you probable need practice

prayer:

God, bless those gathered here, their families, friends & all we come in contact with. Give us the strength to practice the principles of love & service to others in all our affairs. We ask for strength to be a positive influence in the lives of others & that we be given the strength to practice the principles in the book Alcoholics Anonymous, thus insuring our physical & emotional sobriety. Amen.

SENTIMENT: feeling

RADICAL: extreme view

PORTION: 1st 164 pages

PROGRAM: plan action taken toward goal

OBSESSION: compulsive, often unreasonable idea or feeling, compelling motivation

XVI

DILEMMA: problem, difficult, trying situation

REMEDY: answer

XXIV

DEFECTIVE: lacking something essential to be complete

ALLERGY: abnormal reaction to food or substance

ALTRUISTIC PLANE: concern for the welfare of others as opposed to selfishness/fellowship

BEFOGGED: confused, drunk

XXVII

PHENOMENON: exceptionally rare or unusual fact or event

WAR FEVER: nervousness, restless excitement

EXHILARATING: exciting, cheerful

REMONSTRANCES: expressions of disapproval or protest

SUMPTUOUS: expensive, luxurious

BATHTUB GIN: homemade alcohol

PRODIGIOUS BENDER: enormous drinking spree

COCKSURENESS: overconfidence

SELFISH: concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself

GOOSE HUNG HIGH: period good times

DELIRIUM TREMENS, D.T’s: violent restlessness due to excessive/prolonged use alcoholic beverages characterized by trembling terrifying visual hallucinations

WET BRAIN: severe & permanent brain damage caused by drinking, person can’t care for themselves, requires constant care

SOTS: chronic drunkards

INSIDIOUS: tricky, cunning, seductive

DEBAUCH: drinking spree

FOURTH DIMENSION: something outside ordinary experience, can’t be explained, must be experienced

MUSING: thinking, pondering

AGHAST: shocked

RANT: preach, speak in noisy, exited manner

TWO MEN: Rowland H., sober in 1932/Cebra G., members New York Oxford Group

SIMPLE RELIGIOUS IDEA: Steps 2,3

PRACTICAL PROGRAM OF ACTION: Steps 4-12

ANTIPATHY: strong feeling dislike, hostility or opposition

HUMBLE: not proud, arrogant, or assertive, being aware of your shortcomings

CLAMORS: outcries, commotion's

HUMILITY: being humble, absence self-pride, self-will, or self-assertion

SELF-CENTEREDNESS: concerned solely with one’s own desires, needs, or interests

PROFOUND: deep, very great, extensive

CAMARADERIE: spirit of friendliness & good will, good-fellowship

WILL POWER: strong determination, self control

SUPPLANTED: replaced

THREADBARE IDEA: poor, weak

LEGIONS: large numbers

CONSUMMATION: finish, completion, fulfillment

SIMPLE KIT OF SPIRITUAL TOOLS: 12 Steps

SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE: awakenking, attitude adjustment, psychic change, personality change

569

PROFOUND: deep, very great, extensive

570

INNER RESOURCE: God conscience

EMPHATICALLY: strongly expressed

BELLIGERENT: hostile, combative, quarrelsome

ILLUSION: something that misleads or deceives

DELUSION: false belief held as result of self-deception

HUMILIATED: lowered in status, pride, self-esteem dignity or status, disgraced, degraded, shamed,

CRUX: core/most important thing

CONSTERNATION: confusion, amazement or frustration

SUBTLE: sly, elusive, clever

PROPHESIED: predicted, foretold, forecasted

SPIRITUAL ANSWER: Steps 2 & 3

PROGRAM OF ACTION: Steps 4

AGNOSTIC: person unsure that God exits, believes that existence or non-existence of God cannot be proven or known

DISCONCERTED: upset, troubled, confused

OTHER SIMPLE STEPS: Steps 4-12

EMPHATICALLY: completely, strongly, forcefully, expressed in strong way marked with emphasis

SIMPLE CORNERSTONE: Step 2

SPIRITUAL STRUCTURE: Steps 3-12

FUTILITY: uselessness, without purpose

CONSTITUTIONALLY: by there basic nature

RIGOROUS: very strict, rigid, inflexible

CUNNING: crafty, tricky

SPIRITUAL STEP: Step 3

SELF-ESTEEM: self-respect, self-confidence, pride in oneself

AMBITIONS: goals, aims, desires to gain or accomplish

FUTILITY: uselessness, without purpose

BRAINSTORM: fits of rage, sudden & violent fits of brain disturbance

GROUCH: habitually complaining or irritable person

HUMBLED: lowered, thought less of, reduced in self-pride

REPARATIONS: amends, repairs, act or process making amends

SERVILE: behaving like slave or inferior, feeling less then

SCRAPING: irritating, harsh, abrasive, quarrelsome

LAURELS: past achievements, attainments accomplishments or deeds

TERMS AND EXPRESSIONS

ACCEPTANCE: the fact of receiving gladly, taking willingly

ALCOHOLIC: a person who honestly wants to quit drinking and can't quite entirely or when drinking has little control over how much he or she drinks

AGNOSTIC: a person who believes that God is unknown and probably unknowable

ALLERGY: an abnormal reaction to a food or chemical substance

ALTRUISTIC: concern for the welfare of others as opposed to egoism or selfishness

AMENDS: the correction of injuries or mistakes

ANONYMOUS: giving no name, marked by lack of individuality or personality

APOLOGY: an admission of error or discourtesy accompanied by an expression of regret

ATHEIST: a person who believes there is no God

AVOCATION: something a person does in addition to a principle

occupation, esp. for pleasure

BAFFLE: confuse, bewilder

BALK: to stop short and refuse to proceed

BALLET: a group that performs ballets, dancing

BEDEVILMENT: bewilderment, to cause confusion or doubt in, muddle, confound

CHICANERY: trickery

COCKSURENESS: overconfidence

CRAVING: an abnormal desire; a great desire or longing

DEFECTS OF CHARACTER: deficiencies, faults, flaws of character, same as shortcomings

DESIGN FOR LIVING: way of life

DRY: the state of not being drunk or high but not experiencing the feeling of peace of mind & heart that you and the world are OK

EGO: self-esteem

EGO-CENTRIC: thinking or acting with the view that one's self is the center

FAITH: firm belief in something for which there is no proof, complete confidence, trust

FELLOWSHIP: a group of people with the same interests or experiences

FOREBODING: a dark sense of impending evil; an evil omen

FOURTH DIMENSION: something outside ordinary experience

FROTHY: something unsubstantial or of little value

GOD: a divine power as each person understands and accepts or not accepts. Nothing to do with religious teachings or practice

HONEST: free from fraud or deception

HUMBLE: not proud, arrogant, or assertive

ILLUSION: something that misleads or deceives

INSANITY: taking a drink knowing it may kill you

INSIDIOUS: harmful but enticing, treacherous, seductive

MEDITATION: serious contemplation or reflection, listening for directions

MENTAL TWIST: unexplainable thinking

NATURE: the basis or essential characteristics of something

NO AXES TO GRIND: not for selfish purposes

OBSESSION: a compulsive, often unreasonable idea or feeling

PHENOMENON: something known by the senses but not understood by the mind

PRAYER: any act or communication with God

PROGRAM OF ACTION: steps four through twelve

PROGRAM OF RECOVERY: explained in the book Alcoholics Anonymous which is how most members of AA got and stay sober; asking His protection and care with compete abandon

RANTING: violent, loud, vehement

RECOVERY: learning to live a meaningful and comfortable life with out the need of alcohol, coping with life without alcohol

RESENTMENT: ill will felt because of a real or imagined wrong

RIGOROUS: severely exact, precise

SANITY: not taking the first drink

SCOFF: to show or treat with contempt by derisive acts or language SELF-CENTEREDNESS: centered in oneself, independent, absorbed in self

SELF-SEEKING: pursuing only for oneself

SELFISH: caring unduly or supremely for oneself, regarding one's own comfort in disregard to that of others

SIMPLE RELIGIOUS IDEA: step two

SIXTH SENSE: a power of perception like but not one of the five senses, a keen intuitive power

SOTS: chronic drunkards

SPIRITUAL AWAKENING: a hugh emotional displacement and rearrangement of ideas, emotions, and attitudes, a personality change which occurs slowly, gradually over time

SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE: a hugh emotional displacement and rearrangement of ideas, emotions, and attitudes, a personality change which occurs suddenly, quickly, sudden awareness of a higher power or God

THE STEPS: Twelve Steps that summarize the program of recovery

UNMANAGEABLE: having trouble with personal relationships, unable to control emotional nature, being prey to misery and depression, having a feeling of uselessness, being full of fear and unhappiness, not being to be of real help to others

WRONGS: resentments (wrong judgements), (fears) wrong believing, wrong actions (harms done to others)

YOUR WILL: your thinking

Three spiritual wrongs resulting from the common manifestations of self = resentments (wrong judgements), fears (wrong believing), sex (wrong actions).

Let's make sure we understand what a resentment really is: it is re-feeling old hurts. We don't have to be red faced with veins popping out of our heads and shaking, just irritated, on edge. We have not truly forgiven what ever we are re-feeling, not forgotten but forgiven. Re always means to repeat so we are re-feeling old pain and hurt over and over again and kicking our own butts again and again.

Fears are those things that are blocking us from doing something useful and or productive or are causing us not to experience the peace of mind and serenity we all want. They are interfering with our lives.

Guilt, remorse and shame are pretty much self-explanatory. They take the so called fun we think we had out of something we did to feel good.

Twenty five instructions on resentments in the Big Book also apply to fear and sex inventories.

Before we go on let's look at the page in the handout before the inventory for resentments, we want to look at these "spiritual" wrongs and they are spiritual wrongs because they block us off from God."

Look at next page, Review of Resentments and fold the forth and fifth columns back so we only see three columns. Now let's compare our sheet to page 65 in the Big Book. They look very similar. In the top right hand side of your handout are instructions of how to fill this sheet, in the Big Book they are on pages 64-66. Column one is the same but the sheet is not filled out and the same with column two and three.

Lets look at the sheet in the handout showing a picture of Self. The basic God given instincts given us by God make up Self. These instincts are like a building that has electricity, plumbing, a solid foundation with walls and a roof. As long as everything is working OK there no problem but let there be a short in the wiring and a fire may start, a broken pipe and a flood, a cracked foundation or weak wall and collapse, a hole in the roof and ruined items inside. The same with our instincts, when they are in tack the way God intended, we have no problem; people or things do not hurt us or threaten us, and we don't hurt or threaten others. But let our instincts of Self be out of kilter, and watch out. We are going to be angry, have resentments, be fearful and end up hurting others to build ourselves up when one or more or our instincts are hurt or even just threatened. Even worse, they don't have to be really hurt or threatened, we just have to think they are.

Then because of our resentment, re-feeling an old hurt, a spiritual wrong, God will not reside in our hearts with that in it. Fear blocks Him out because He will be in a heart with fear, meaning we are not trusting Him, we have no room for the courage that God gives us. And with the hurt we have done to others to build ourselves up come feelings of guilt, remorse, shame and self pity, again blocking us off from the peace of having God in our hearts. So from the guilt, remorse, shame, resentments, anger, and fear we quite effectively block ourselves off from the Spirit of the Universe who keep us sober, happy, joyful, free and sober, so we drink to change the way we feel, we want to feel better, we trigger the allergy and we are off again.

Resentments happen when an instinct is hurt or threatened, fear when we think a instinct will be hurt or is threatened, guilt, remorse, shame from hurting others.

When we get these things on paper they look dumb and stupid and they usually disappear. Those that don't can be prayed away so we can be resentment free, fear free, and have no guilt, remorse and shame and since those things are absent, we feel good, serene, at peace with ourselves and the world, what a wonderful feeling.

However, guess what? Those things, resentments, fears and the guilt, remorse and shame have a tendency to come back and block us off from God. So for that reason we must get to the root of the problem, the source, the exact nature of our wrongs to hinder there return. So our book tells us to analyze our past on page 67 and ask ourselves some real hard, tough questions. Now we go to column 5 on our inventory sheet and see what part we played in the first column disregarding the other person, place or institution. We also will use this column for Steps 5, 6, and 7 and the first column for Steps 8 and 9.

BIG BOOK SEMINAR

The Discovery Place (a spiritual retreat center in Burns, Tn.) is hosting a BIG BOOK seminar Wednesday, May 9th, from 9am to 3pm. It is open to everyone having an interest in the book, Alcoholics Anonymous. Transportation will be provided and will depart from 835 Richardson St. at 7:30am, returning approximately 4:30pm.

To get to 835 Richardson St. (as you are leaving the parking

lot from Clark St. meeting building turn left, go through the traffic light at the intersection, the street is now called Richardson St., go just past the second left, Paradise Hills, to 835 Richardson, 4th house on the left with a brown mail box out front and a large parking lot in front of the house.)

BIG BOOK OUTLINE FOR SEMINARS

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xi/1/1 | This | xi/1/3 | 1939,

xi/2/1 | Because | xi/2/8 | editions.

xiii/1/1 | We | xiii/1/5 | book.

xv/3/1 | The | xv/3/7 | friend...

xvi/1/1 | Prior | xvi/2/11 | recovery.

xix/3/6 | alcoholics | xix/3/13 | passed.

xx/4/7 | Upon | xx/4/11 | freedom.

xxii/3/4 | The | xxii/3/5 | program...

xxii/3/7 | trace | xxii/3/9 | Anonymous.

xxii/4/3 | recovery | xxiii/1/3 | book.

xxiv/2/4 | we | xxiv/3/2 | us.

xxiv/4/1 | Though | xxiv/4/7 | offer.

xxv/8/1 | an | xxv/8/2 | liquor,

xxvi/4/1 | Men | xxvii/1/7 | rules.

xxvii/3/3 | One | xxvii/3/5 | change

xxvii/4/1 | I | xxvii/4/10 | control.

1/1/1 | War | 1/1/10 | alcohol.

3/1/1 | For | 3/2/7 | scrapes.

4/1/1 | Abruptly | 4/2/4 | style.

4/2/5 | But | 6/1/14 | oblivion.

7/1/6 | I | 8/4/10 | days.

9/1/1 | The | 9/7/2 | it.

11/3/1 | my | 12/4/4 | point

12/5/1 | God | 12/5/2 | enough.

12/6/2 | For | 14//2/8 | profound

14/6/1 | My | 14/6/11 | that.

15/1/3 | my | 15/1/13 | going.

17/2/1 | We | 17/3/6 | alcoholism.

19/1/3 | We | 19/1/6 | affairs.

19/3/1 | We | 19/3/3 | knowledge.

19/4/10 | Our | 19/4/12 | needs.

20/1/4 | we | 20/2/3 | done.

20/5/1 | Moderate | 21/1/5 | drink.

22/4/1 | We | 23/1/5 | body.

23/4/3 | At | 24/2/7 | stove.

24/4/1 | When | 25/3/10 | effort.

27/4/4 | spiritual | 27/4/4 | experiences.

27/4/5 | They | 27/4/11 | them.

28/3/7 | all | 28/4/5 | choice.

30/1/1 | Most | 30/3/10 | better.

32/2/1 | A | 33/1/11 | alcohol.

34/3/6 | we | 34/3/8 | problem.

35/2/1 | Our | 37/1/4 | else?

39/2/1 | Fred | 41/2/17 | spots.

42/1/1 | "Two | 42/1/2 | me.

42/2/1 | they | 42/2/11 | be.

43/3/1 | Once | 43/3/2 | drink.

43/3/3 | neither | 44/3/9 | disconcerted.

44/4/8 | Our | 45/2/3 | problem.

46/1/3 | We | 47/2/8 | built.

50/4/1 | Here | 50/4/15 | unsatisfactory.

52/2/3 | We | 52/2/8 | people-

53/2/1 | When | 53/2/5 | be?

55/2/1 | deep | 55/2/5 | there.

55/3/3 | Sometimes | 55/4/7 | you.

57/2/3 | He | 58/1/13 | honest.

58/4/1 | Remember | 59/2/2 | recovery:

60/2/1 | Our | 60/4/4 | good.

61/2/10 | are | 62/2/8 | aid.

62/1/12 | We | 62/1/12 | help.

63/1/1 | When | 64/1/5 | truth...

64/2/2 | we | 65/1/4 | with?

65/3/1 | We | 65/3/9 | ourselves.

66/1/1 | It | 68/2/7 | serenity.

68/3/7 | We | 68/4/3 | question.

68/4/15 | We | 69/2/4 | them.

69/4/1 | God | 70/1/10 | experience.

70/3/1 | If | 72/2/23 | story.

73/4/1 | We | 73/4/5 | step.

75/2/1 | We | 76/3/13 | alcohol.

77/1/4 | The | 77/2/9 | result.

79/1/1 | reparations | 79/2/4 | pit.

80/1/1 | Before | 80/1/5 | shrink.

82/3/1 | The | 83/2/1 | it.

83/3/1 | There | 85/1/11 | could.

83/4/1 | if | 85/1/11 | will.

85/3/1 | Step | 86/3/6 | while.

87/1/1 | We | 87/1/8 | ends.

87/3/1 | As | 87/3/10 | ourselves.

89/1/1 | Practical | 89/2/1 | meaning

569/1/1 | The | 569/4/15 | themselves

570/2/1 | Most | 570/3/4 | indispensable

574/3/2 | "The | 574/3/4 | others.

resentments

column 1 64/3/7

2 64/3/9

3 65/1/1

4 67/2/1

5 67/2/3

fear

1 68/1/1

2 68/1/2

3 67/3/3,6

4 67/3/7

5 67/3/7

sex

1 69/1/1,3

2 69/1/4

3 69/1/4

4 69/1/4

5 69/1/2

BOOK MARKINGS FOR SEMINARS

NOTES

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XVII

XXII

XXIV (1) (2)

XXVI

XXVII

5 (1) (2)

8 (1) (2)

12 (1) (2)

19 (1) (2)

44 (1) (2)

59 (1) (2)

60 + DRO&C1 C4 CS1-3 (1) (2)

64 (1) (2) (3) (4) C1 C2

65 C3

66 (1) (2)

67 (1) (2) C4 C5

72 (1) (2)

76 (1) (2)

84 (1) (2) (3)

85 (1) (2)

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DATES

1 1917

3 1926 1928

4 1930

6 1932

8 1934

13 DEC 1934

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A PARTIAL FEAR LIST

fears (wrong believing)

Fears are not all bad, after all they are God given. They are bad when they block us from doing something useful, productive or causes us not to experience peace of mind, serenity or they interfere with our lives.

Here is a interesting prayer:

Thank you God for the gift of fear. I confess my self-will used fear in a self-seeking manner. Your fear is for flight, fight, or freezing. My use of fear is for destruction, despondency and dependence. God, please show me where my fear is hidden. I will continue to be your agent, to be your employee, and to be Your child. Amen.

Here is a partial list of some fears to assist you in identifying your own:

FEAR OF:

DOING STEP 5

MAKING AMENDS

ASKING ASSISTANCE

BEING CAUGHT

BEING FOUND OUT

LOSING SOMETHING

SOMETHING WILL OR WILL NOT HAPPEN

LETTING OTHERS REALLY KNOW YOU

GOD

GOING TO CHURCH

PUBLIC SPEAKING

DRINKING

INSANITY

LIVING

DYING

DEATH

BLINDNESS

CANCER

PSYCHIATRISTS

DENTISTS

DOCTORS

HOSPITALS

PAIN

OLD AGE

LOSS OF LOVED ONE

REJECTION

CRITICISM

PUBLIC SPEAKING

BEING BROKE

CREDITORS

BEING FIRED

BEING LAID OFF

SCARED OF THINGS I CAN'T IDENTIFY

THE LIST GOES ON AND ON

given 41

11 Hop town jail

19 with Kathy (8 at jail)

3rd | 4th

xxiii | xxv

xxiv | xxvi

xxv | xxvii

xxvi | xxviii

xxvii | xxix

xxviii | xxx

xxix | xxxi

xxx | xxxii